If only you knew how much the sound of your voice hurts,
if only I could ignore your spoken words.
You pushed me away when you danced on my wounds,
you ended up alone and I was left with an empty soul.
You are the human being that gave me life,
but this resentment is something you can’t just erase.
Between you and me there’s only pain,
deep wounds I wish one day would heal themselves.
Many times I avow to ask forgiveness to you and me,
cold and long nights of abandonment in my corner space.
So many times I waited for your return and it never happened,
people sentenced me for being the gay orphan, it was my fate.
Biblical stories that filled me with horror,
ignorance and violence that private me of a better world.
From one place to the other without love nor compassion,
always asking myself if that was the will of the Lord.
I feel alone and full of rage in my soul.
Time has not cure my deep wounds,
it only has intensified my pain ten times more.
Time has only whither my joy,
it has broken to pieces my spirit and my hopes.